Don't give up!

March 7, 2023—almost exactly two years ago, I received my cancer diagnosis. I remember that moment so vividly—the fear, stress, and overwhelm, but also the unwavering faith, comfort, and support. It’s amazing to look back on all that has happened in such a short amount of time, and I’m so grateful for the life I’m blessed to continue living.

One of the biggest challenges post-cancer treatment has been rebuilding my strength. Over the last year and a half, I lost almost all my muscle, mobility, and stamina. I’ve been working so hard to build it back, but progress has been slow.

There have been many moments where I’ve cried during a workout or exercise session—because I couldn’t do it, or it was simply too painful. Painful in the sense that my body just didn’t have the strength, flexibility, or alignment it once had. My body has hurt because I lost so much mobility and ability.

It’s been tough.

But I am determined. I won’t quit. I know that strength will come as long as I keep showing up. Even if I have to cry through it, I will keep going. Even if the progress seems small or weak, it’s still progress. Lifting 5 lbs over my head is better than lifting nothing at all!

Finally, I’m starting to feel momentum. It’s getting easier as I get stronger. I can push myself a little more than I could six months ago. I don’t get tired as quickly. I can now carry in all the grocery bags by myself.

I can even do a couple of push-ups. 😅

I’m still far from “normal” or where I want to be physically. It might take another year, maybe more, maybe less.

But I’m seeing, in my own life, what it looks like to not give up. I don't think I’ve really understood what this concept means as much as I do now. To push myself every day, supporting my goal with every decision I make. The 5:30 a.m. workouts, the 1-mile walks on my mini treadmill during Zoom meetings, the healthier meals (thanks to my husband for all the cooking!), monthly chiropractor visits, and so many other little things—they are all slowly coming together. Even on the days when rest is the best choice, I know I am still moving forward.

I’ve been reflecting on what drives me to keep going during this time of rebuilding. It’s really powerful to think about. Here are a few things that inspire me:

• My husband and daughter: I want to be at my best for them.

• My faith: I can do all things with the help of my Savior.

• My goals: I set goals to get to the next level.

• My determination: I want to prove to myself that I can do it.

• My health: I’ve been given the gift of life. I have to take care of it.

One of the best parts of showing up each day to work out is when my daughter, Arwen, decides to join me. Every single time I’m working out and she’s around, she hops in. She does yoga, lifts weights, and even does squats. It motivates and inspires me to do this together because, ultimately, I’m doing it for both of us in so many ways.

Moral of the Story: DO NOT GIVE UP! If you're working toward a health goal and it’s challenging and hard—keep showing up. Make the decisions each day that align with what you want. If you’re struggling with your faith, finances, or family—DO NOT GIVE UP! Keep pressing forward and make decisions each day that will lead you to what you’re searching for. No matter where you are in your journey, DO NOT GIVE UP! I promise, there will come a day when you’ll look back and realize just how far you’ve come.

So, picture yourself a year from now, looking back at today. What would future you thank you for?

Love, Erica❤️🌺